I really am lethargic when it's rainy season. I love to sleep. that's why, despite my heavy aversion of getting up, I still did. I have to report to work. Little did I know that it will turn out to be quite disastrous but fun. It started with an on and off power fluctuation that disrupted the production force since most of the terminals hanged up causing almost all of the data in process loss. For almost two hours it was like that and finally when all of us thought it will be all right, a sudden flash of virus alert flooded most of our lcd screens and viola, mr trojan invaded our system! Very funny! It started in one of the terminals located at production three and in just 15 minutes it was already invading several units in production one! Wow! Speaking of being a fast worker. Nya ha ha ha ha ^_^

Well, glad to say, we went home early yesterday morning and last night, it was declared a forced off. Take note: FORCED OFF! Wa ke ke ke ke (*Delton_Ruu dancing in the air! Kukukukuku)

It just gave me the chance to fangirl for the tenimyu musicals again! Yosh! Off to go. . . . .^____^

location: in space mood: bouncy music: Omae wa Seigaku no Hashira ni Nare (Kunimitzu solo edition)

I was originally planning to be online earlier today. It just so happen that I overslept. >.< Grrr. . .!

I got so immensely hooked up in finishing something that involves a compilation of rikkai dai tennis team profile in powerpoint last night that still ended up unfinished that I was already late at night when I noticed.

I'm really enamored by the idea of sending my best friend whose in cebu that's also into rikkai dai as a hello present. I have'nt heard of her in more or less 4 months time and I miss her.

By the way, I'd like to greet Yukimura-bucho a very Happy Happy Birthday!

location: Lost mood: chipper music: I Ran Away by Birtney Speaqrs tags: rikkai dai, yukimura seiichi

It has been heavily raining for straight two weeks and Mr. Sunshine has just shown his face yesterday.
All I did was sleep, eat and watch TV. I even skipped work almost every day. I deserve the flu I got. Its the punishment for being a sloth queen. Gah! I hate myself. I want to tear my hair apart and knock some good 'ol sense into my cranium. 

They say old habits die hard. I always prove that to be true. In fact, I am another living example of that. Christ! I know I have a lot of things to do and I am REALLY so behind schedule, yet, here I am still evading reality. Geez, my parents should have given me the first name LAZY, middle name BUM and last name GREATEST-PROCRASTINATOR. It suites me very well. Shame on me.

Yesterday late afternoon I went to the city to pay the telephone bill in advance. Better do it early before I spend the money in other things and regret doing so. I don't care if it makes my atm go blank as long as I pay the bills in my shoulder, I don't care. Its just money. I can still earn it again though. When I think of that, it really SCARES me. I sound like I don't care in preparing for my future and it just contradicts my being RESPONSIBLE motto.

Jesus what's wrong with me these days?

Must be the rain. That's it! Must be the RAIN.

location: Don't even know where I am. mood: disappointed music: Not in the mood for now

When Christmas season fast approaches, I always used to be so excited. Receiving gifts from my parents and family, exchanging gifts with friends, new set of clothes and stuffs and lot and lot of parties to attend and celebrate with. The feeling is so nostalgic. But that was when I was still a kid. As time passes, I slowly grew up and my views on Christmas holidays gradually changed. I prefer to celebrate it in a solemn and peaceful manner with all the members of my family intact. I don't care about the gifts, new sets of clothes and stuffs and attending parties anymore. They're just giving me stress and headaches. Not to mention expenses. What matters most to me is my family. That's all.

I was looking forward to new years too, way back. But now, its just so ordinary. I used to list all the stuffs I have to achieve in the next twelve months but now, I just let it flow. Maybe because, I already know what I have to do, or maybe, its just because I already grew up. That must be it. I grew up.

Whew! How fast time flies. I still remember I was studying for my final exams but that was four years ago. I already graduated from college and now, I'm working. How I miss those days.

A very nostalgic feeling indeed. That's what Christmas and New Years do to me. Reminisce.

By the way, I borrowed some dvds from my cousin a day ago because I thought I already needed an update in the movie industry and I'm glad I did. I was able to finish watching My Wife is a Gangster 3 when I arrived home from work yesterday. Too tired to sleep yet so I did. And wow! Shu Qi really rocks. I really loved the way she kicked those thugs asses and it gave me an adrenaline rush knowing women are also capable of doing that. I mean, in kicking ass!

Its story is about a girl whose a daughter of a gang leader in hong kong who was forced to go on a vacation because she was still 'hot' in the city of what she did to a guy (Stabbing his right hand with a sword and slicing his face off! Nya ha ha ha ha) that was a member of the rival gang that they were supposed to have a compromise meeting with. She was asked to perform a sword dance and while she was at it, that said guy threw some broken glass at the floor twice. She performed barefoot and at first, she just ignored it, but the second time, well, people, that's already another story so, well, I already gave you what happened next, which ignited an upcoming war between her fathers' gang and the other. You should watch it guys and specially gals. I assure you, you'll laugh your heart out.

Other's that I have just finished watching was 'The Seeker and Blade: House of Schton'. The first one was good, except for Blade because the dvd disc was jumpy and I wasn't able to finish it. Damn! (*grits teeth*) I was already caught up with the action and it just suddenly, well, stopped. How romantic! (*sarcastic*) And now here I am, writing this trash! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!

Anime and Manga stuffs? Yes, I'm still at it. Just finished watching Alice Gakuen a week ago, updated myself with bleach, eyeshield 21 and prince of tennis manga, Saiunkoku Monogatari (colorcloud palace) both anime and manga and well, checked emails and read some anime fan fictions. Just my typical leisure routine. That's all. 

Oh! And I just remembered that I miss my Irumi-chan. I'm really very glad that Togashi continued Hunter x Hunter. Now i'm looking forward to always be updated with the manga.

I also developed this Ryuuki-Shuurei pairing obssession and I can't seem to decide whom between Reishin and Ryuuren to pick as my Saiunkoku love interest. (Crap! I sense doom so anyone, better prepare the life jacket before I run chasing around Seiran fans. Geez, I'm already getting mental. Look at what Saiunkoku Monogatari has done to me.)

Lastly, I was able to grab a dvd copy of The Ghost Whisperer seasons' one and two, Gakuen Alice, Boys Be, Crest of the Stars, Ergo Proxy and Saber Marionette J.

location: Japan mood: In Trance music: Alone by Mikuni Shimokawa 4th Ending Song of Gensomaden Saiyuki

Its confirmed. My mind's working overtime! It just doesn't stop from thinking. It keeps on going and making lists and I can't turn it off. So much to do and I know I have to organize it effectively so that I can initiate it efficiently and accurately.
Then it dawned to me. I can't do them all by MYSELF. That's the major culprit.

Its a given fact that there are only four of us in the family. Having a sickly retired father, a recuperating from a minor slip accident mother and a very busy with both his work and studies male cousin for a house mates, life is definitely not that easy. The house is a total mess. My room is even worse. I can't even do my own laudry and I'm running out of wearing options fast. Damn! Despite the successive unscheduled day-offs (today is the sixth time for this cut-off) still, I haven't done the said laundry yet. Blame, Eyeshield 21 and Yakitate Ja-Pan as a main excuse. I've wasted my personal days with them with sleeping as its steady partner.  Crap! I hate to admit but I've been a lazy ass and self-centered egocentric diva with such actions and I'm utterly embarassed, not to mention ashamed of my actions. Sloth and procrastrination aren't the best companions these days but i guess that is what I have with me now. Geez, I definitely hate the feeling!

I'm tired. No, not just tired but totally beat. I haven't had proper sleep since last night. I reported for work at seven in the evening yesterday. Went out past four in the morning today and totally went all the way (Went down town to withdraw my salary and paid the telephone and cable bills, then I arrived home past 11 am and surfed the net.) until nearly two in the afternoon. Sleep weren't kind to me for I unceremonously woke up almost 6 in the evening and now, I can feel the muscles of my body is giving in.

Oops! My brain still keeps on making lists. I guess this is the effect of too much cola and coffee intake ne? Suffer the consequences. Ya-Ha!

location: Internet Cafe mood: Mentally-Crammed music: Hajimari no Kaze by Ayaka Hirahara

May 22-June 19 2007

I was in my worst state during these days. Despite in my leave of absence from work I still felt hell. Pressure and stress isn't an easy matter to handle and it weared me off like a zoned out monkey. My health, both mental and physical went downhill and I had to visit my cardiologist for another check up because the status of my heart was not good. Well, being diagnosed with angina pectoris, ischemia heart disease and hyperlipidemia wasn't a bit amusing and it depressed me more. In my worst moment I even thought it was the end but miraculously I survived. I have to thank God (for my faith), family and friends (for always being there for me, never leaving despite my situation) and of course myself for not giving up hope that I can still recover and start life again.  

Somehow, I even find it a miracle because I learned a lesson that's supposed to be learned long time ago and it was acceptance. Acceptance of life's imperfections. It helped me mature a little. Even though the amount was small, at least its an improvement, ne? ^__^

during my forced vacation, I was able to watch some of my acquired dvds [Black Blood Brothers (BBB), Gate Keepers and One Piece (episodes 249-299)].

After watching this 13-episode anime I immidiately fell in love with the main protagonist Mochidoki, Jirou, Zelman Clock and Ryu______. I can't also deny the cuteness Mochidoki, Kotaru exudes. My fangirl spirit was again reborn and the temporary anime insanity took over me for quite a few days, only seeing those aforementioned bishies everywhere. Wheee!!!!!!

Gate Keepers

I just watched the OAVs since I've already watched the anime series at axn. It was ok. :-)

One Piece (Episode 249-299)

Not even a sneak peak over this since I'm not yet updated with this anime. I watched this one when it was aired on GMA but could not follow through when it was continued since I got busy with work. Hopefully, I'll be able to make it once I organize my daily schedule. I pray to God that my procrastinating won't take over me yet.)

Naruto Shippudden Epsiodes 1-11

I was reading the manga so I was quite aware of what this anime was all about. Most of the main cast grew up and I squealed in delight when I saw Hyuuga Neji again. (HYUUGA, HYUUGA L-O-V-E HYUUGA! Waaaaaa ! ! ! ! !) Geez, I guess I will never grow up. ^_^

Death Note The Movie & Death Note The Last Name (Live Action)

Nice movies. It was mentally stimulating. All the mind games and stuff. I find the actors behind Yagami Light and L cute. (Later on I found out that the guy who played L was the same actor who played Yanagi Renji in Prince of Tennis Live Action Movie are one. I nearly had a heart attack. Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha!) I was able to grab a copy of the anime series later on but I haven't watched it yet. Bad me. Hee! Hee

Hana Yori Dango (J-Drama 1stand 2nd season)

Matsomoto Jun and Oguri Shun made my fan girl heart swoon again (Geez, when will it stop? Sometimes, I think I'm really boy crazy, well, am I? What the - - -?). I was even infected with these cute and gorgeous guys fever for a couple of weeks. Hell, blame my close highschool friend and officemate Yaye for it. She was the one who forced me to watch it on GMA and look what happened. Grrrr! >.<

XxxHolic

After I;ve watched the first 17 episodes and its movie I was speecheless. Why? Its  story plotline hit me to the core. This said anime is all about human desires and the law of Karma. A lot of life lessons are learned here. I encourage everyone to watch this. ^__^ By the way, Watanuki Kimihiro resembles our dear Hiragiizawa Eriol and Clow Reed of CCS. I like him and Yuuko is way damn too sexy!

June 19-September 2007

I went back to work and my life routine was on again. I took it easy and became health conscious. If I want to live a healthy life, first I have to eat healthy foods. Jesus, it wasn't easy believe me. I was used to eating protein enriched foods like pork, carabeef and chicken. Now I have to minimize its intake and opt for more greens and fruits. But, it did work. My physical condition improved.

My leisure activities were still the same. Movie and anime marathon, net surfing and reading anime fan fiction. I was able to grab a copy of Blood+ (got hyperactive over Haji and Simon, Hee Hee), Naruto Shippudden episodes 1-16, Gun X Sword (haven't finished watching this yet but I find this anime funny and ok. Who wouldn't when the main protagonist resembles the combination of the men behind coyboy beebop, lupin, trigun and outlaw star? Errr. . . Erase that! ^_^), a live action anime-based movies [(PoT, Metantei Conan, Initial D and Metantei Gakuen Q). Go Shirota Yuu, Oguri Shun and the actor behind Renjo Kyu! (sorry, forgot his name ^_^)] and Prince of Tennis National Arc Episodes 1-13. Whoot! Whoot!  ^__^

By the way, I celebrated my 25th birthday last September 28. It was just an ordinary day but still my birthday non-the-less. Good thing that day was declared a day-off. I had my day accomplised just by sleeping. Nya! ha! ha! ha! ha!

October 2007

Same old same old daily routine of work, sleep and work except for the movies I watch during these days was from Jet Lee and Love Stories collection for a change. No strange looks there ok? Despite my being an anime enthusiast I am also into movies. I enjoy watching action-adventure films and I don't care if I belong to the xy-chromosomed populace. What? Are women not allowed to watch Jet Lee execute that cool kung fu moves? I dispute! 0.o

Still reading? Wow! I thought you already had gone to sleep! Thanks for keeping up until here anyway. That means, you're interested on my whereabouts. I just apologize it is somewhat routinary. I know its kind of boring but this is what my life is composed of. Sorry, mababaw lang talaga ang kaligayahan ko. Mapanood ko lang ang anime na gusto ko, kontento na ako dun.  Hay, I really feel sleepy na. Til next time!

Ja!

location: Infront of my computer again mood: busy music: Breakthrough (1st Opening Song of Eyeshield 21)

The much dreaded self-condemnation and loath due to one's limits and imperfection are once again consuming me and I knew it was imminent because the all-too-familiar symptoms were already flashing before my very eyes:

-  mental distress due to sudden revival of haunted unfinished designated self-task assigned ages ago which was still undone till present, negligence of minor but vital daily responsibilities like simple house chores, physical exercise, proper diet and holy mass attendance during Sundays;

-  health deterioration mainly because of the bottled up stress and pressure from above one and work; and finally

-  self conflict and destruction.

And the rationale behind these are my worst habits: impatience, procrastinating and the tendency to exhibit neurotic behaviors.

It has always been like this every year-end like some kind of a cycle. An overwhelming guilt and regret of not doing something that should have been done, hating and not forgiving myself because of that and the ominous feeling lingers for a very long time that it affects me drastically in a negative way.

Geez, I am really screwed, inside out.

location: Anywhere mood: stressed music: Crawling by Linkin Park

5:25 PM Phil Time

Woke up past five in the afternoon and set up my body to get up and prepare for work, only to find out no food were left for me. 'What the F**k!' Its a routine for me to eat my supposed to be 'breakfast' before taking a bath and everyone in the family knows that. But what really pisses me off is that my prepared (I usually do that before I sleep) food was not spared either . 'Sh*t! What's wrong with these people anyway. They're very much aware my food choice is limited because my uric acid and cholesterol level are monitored in one month and they do this to me? Grrrrr. . . . . . . . ' I've lost my interest upon reporting for work today just because of that. I don't want to make my work and subordinates be the receiving end of my brooding and fit of pique. No need to broaden the field of angst and trouble.

Okaay okaay, enough of those dark thoughts already. I seldom post things here and its quite embarrasing to be in that kind of mood. Watched Bleach and Hana Yori Dango (Japanese Live Action TV Series) dubbed in our local dialect in GMA an hour ago and it was amusing. Its quite a change for me since I'm used to watching those stuff (my dvd collection) in its original nihongo voice subs with english subtitles. In Bleach, I find the local subbing still lacking in passion with those mellifluous voice the tagalog dubbers posses. I mean, even when the main charactres are already in a fight the expresion and voice does not change at all, its like 'I'm about to die and still calm as if its ok? Hee Hee' Ok, I'll give them a chance since its their first times (the voices behind the main characters are novices in the field of voice subbing namely: Marky Cielo, Nadine Samonte, Yasmin Curdy (Not sure if Curvy or Curdy. I'm sorry if I got it wrong. Not really familiar with those new batch of actors and actresses.), Mark Herras and etc. Its not that I'm not supportive with my co-Filipinos' acting ability. Its just not utilized to the max yet.

On the other hand, my opinion on Hana Yori Dangos' voice sub is all in all ok, I think the people behind it are already veterans in voice subbing field that's why I enjoy watching it very much. ^__^ Its funny. Its
over dramatic acting tenor gave me a good laugh.

location: Infront of my computer again mood: grumpy music: Perfect by Simple Plan